Carving out the time for the Socratic Practice of self-examination is more challenging than it should be.. so I tried to use a voice technology to capture the 1st draft and it was close to SAVE then POOF with no UNDO in my knowledge to keep it from total loss. With a deficit that keeps the words in my head so far from words on a page --- I wonder if writing is a fantasy.
I begin again to revisit the a transforming nature writing prompt of 8 minutes. This time unencumbered by the preconceived notion that transform implies good. While there may be eventual good this connection was terrifying in its experience and in each unintended slip in to recall. However this is to be different as I approach with intention the 'seed' to see where it grows.
Immense. Dark. Powerful. WET. An all consuming WET.I feverishly kick with all my might and stretch my fingers with all my will and my voice is screaming inside my head a very important word HELP. It is very important. Is anybody out there? in here, in this murky fast strong water with me and the bubbles. I want to go with the bubbles. Up, up, up out of the water back to the beach - the family - the picnic - the sun - the carefree. I want to live. I want HELP. HELP a very large word joins the water behind my eyes in my head and echoes in the waves. Heavy, strong water does not let me reach as far as I imagine that I can reach. I kick as hard as I can kick but my legs seem to be getting smaller and weaker.I go farther down, covered in wet dark fear. Again and again and again. I will not count. I know lots of numbers. I do not want this to happen that many times. My body is furiously kicking. Paddle joins the word HELP in my head. It sounds instructive and firm. Paddle. HELP. Paddle. HELP. I am not a swimmer but I can dog paddle. I can on top of water. I try. Paddle. HELP. Stronger. Darker. Deeper. My nose fills with water. My mouth opens to breathe. More water. It is dark. No more voices in my head.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Monday, March 18, 2013
Seven Stages Prompt: Transformed by Sacred in Nature
I wanted to buy a home with a kitchen window at which I could lift my eyes from the toils of my day and inhale deeply from the wonder. However, I rarely stand before my kitchen window in the life lead. When I do, I see the birds I tried to name properly as a child: Wren, Chickadee, Cardinal and BlueJay. I do smile within with every moment at my window. It is a tender joy.
However, another window into the world outside has transformed me. It is the window my dog imprinted with his nose. I do not recall the accident that disconnected me from what others see - a dirty window - and joined me to possibility that life has hidden wonders that I need to be open to.
Inspiration: a reference to a kitchen window in a digital story
Image: nose print photographed at night and filtered in Photoshop:
Collection of PicsbyJake
However, another window into the world outside has transformed me. It is the window my dog imprinted with his nose. I do not recall the accident that disconnected me from what others see - a dirty window - and joined me to possibility that life has hidden wonders that I need to be open to.
Inspiration: a reference to a kitchen window in a digital story
Image: nose print photographed at night and filtered in Photoshop:
Collection of PicsbyJake
Monday, February 25, 2013
Interview Triggers Recall
Many years ago I was interviewed by the local Ma Bell Company. They gave me an assignment. I developed an elegant sampling model to assess strategic changes for telephone booth elimination. They were impressed but said -- I was not a good cultural fit. The company had deep pockets and would assign resources to monitor usage 24 x 7 for a sample of weeks to get the data needed. I could not agree more, that I was not a good fit. It turns out that neither research approach took into consideration “mobile phone development” which began that year. Adoption predictors and modeling could have been part of that research.
When I was a part-time bank teller in 1978, I was asked for ideas about how to improve customer service. My 1st experience as a business client. All the long time employees answered –add more part time tellers during peak periods – such as lunch time or Social Security Check Day. I said maybe we can manage the lines – I had read about Queuing Theory in my Research Methods class. A few months later the Bank (CBT) introduced the queued bank lines. At the time I did not know that process improvement would be in my future and how many ways I would participate in creating 'non-object' solutions.
These two stories can to mind after an interview today. I had not thought of either in some time.
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I like to connect what appears to be random dots and create value and have fun doing & documenting it. I have been participating in Distance Learning on 2 fronts these past few weeks and my head is swimming with input that I have yet to fully digest, may never due to the sheer volume. One has 25,000 enrolled the other 40,000. It is the patterns I am seeing in the interaction that has my attention -- but my exposure has been random and I need to test my assumptions. What I do know is that both increased my interest in working with a small team with a shared vision to feed my 'being human' need for being part of something larger than self.
I have an artifact to create (class final assignment) so I will turn to that now...
When I was a part-time bank teller in 1978, I was asked for ideas about how to improve customer service. My 1st experience as a business client. All the long time employees answered –add more part time tellers during peak periods – such as lunch time or Social Security Check Day. I said maybe we can manage the lines – I had read about Queuing Theory in my Research Methods class. A few months later the Bank (CBT) introduced the queued bank lines. At the time I did not know that process improvement would be in my future and how many ways I would participate in creating 'non-object' solutions.
These two stories can to mind after an interview today. I had not thought of either in some time.
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I like to connect what appears to be random dots and create value and have fun doing & documenting it. I have been participating in Distance Learning on 2 fronts these past few weeks and my head is swimming with input that I have yet to fully digest, may never due to the sheer volume. One has 25,000 enrolled the other 40,000. It is the patterns I am seeing in the interaction that has my attention -- but my exposure has been random and I need to test my assumptions. What I do know is that both increased my interest in working with a small team with a shared vision to feed my 'being human' need for being part of something larger than self.
I have an artifact to create (class final assignment) so I will turn to that now...
Monday, February 11, 2013
Memories Are Fallible
When do you remember? Is what is remembered what actually happenned? Lately I have been pummeled by remembrances; depiction of incidents that others are using to characterize ... and it makes me wonder what presets & triggers are involved in memory...and how these presets align with the original occurances and can impact the eventual outcomes.
I tend to be soft spoken ... but I can be engaged; and erupt. 99 % of the time soft spoken is obliterated by the 1% eruptions. The nature of volcanoes - when the release happens all that is nearby changes. And they occur near "hot spots" and they do not occur randomly. They are vents. Vents have an essential purpose to release and freshen. Sometimes freshening happens after many life cycles.
If the 'hot spots' do not get addressed occurrences hardened in the memories that prevail - and unearthing will yield data that informs about the presets & triggers. An interesting finding about volcanoes is that people can be content with the ideas they have about what creates them - and remain uninformed.
It is the 1% characterization with a counterpoint of withdrawal , like a turtle, that encourages me to consider other landscapes for the creation of memories. If the presets aligned with the 99% of my experience; then maybe the vents will freshen.
I tend to be soft spoken ... but I can be engaged; and erupt. 99 % of the time soft spoken is obliterated by the 1% eruptions. The nature of volcanoes - when the release happens all that is nearby changes. And they occur near "hot spots" and they do not occur randomly. They are vents. Vents have an essential purpose to release and freshen. Sometimes freshening happens after many life cycles.
If the 'hot spots' do not get addressed occurrences hardened in the memories that prevail - and unearthing will yield data that informs about the presets & triggers. An interesting finding about volcanoes is that people can be content with the ideas they have about what creates them - and remain uninformed.
It is the 1% characterization with a counterpoint of withdrawal , like a turtle, that encourages me to consider other landscapes for the creation of memories. If the presets aligned with the 99% of my experience; then maybe the vents will freshen.
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